Dealio

Wow, can't believe it. I'm not your traditional pregnant chick...at least not yet! I don't like a big deal. When I got married I told my mother and sister in law, "I don't care I just want to be married you guys do everything and it will all be fine." I sort of feel that way about being pregnant. It is a big deal, but I don't want a big deal to be made....make sense? I mean, I'm not the first person to ever be pregnant. It is cool that every one is excited and my Twinkie is spazzing out, my #2 parents are already buying stuff, my Mank is loving it because I went through her whole pregnancy with her, my Mimo is proud and happy, and of course my Man-meat is right there with me. It makes me excited too! But, I don't like a big deal. Those that know me, know this also ha ha.

I don't want to be treated different. I am still me. I still want to be treated as me...I'm still wissa. Down the line I might feel differently, but right now I am just me with a little extra sumpin going on downstairs.

Speaking of that. Here's what is going on right this second. I'm bloated. I'm only 4 weeks along so I'm not showing. Ha ha, I'm just fat right now. All my clothes feel the same on me, no change there. I can't sleep very well right now. I have little cramps in my abdomen all day. It feels like I've been doing crunches. I'm THIRSTY! That's probably why I can't sleep because I have to pee a bunch from all the water. My nips hurt a lot. Like if I have an itch on there and scratch it it feels like my nipple is being ripped off. I feel like I have perma-PMS. I think I'm eating the same amount as always, I've always been a good eater, but I've become way more aware of what I'm eating and how much.

Mentally....I am mean right now. I feel bad for my husband and coworkers! I also feel like I have to really grow up. It is a very confusing time! Like I said before I want to be treated the same as alway, yet I can't be treated the same because I feel different which makes people respond to me differently. What a dilemma! Like I said, confusing. I guess I don't care if everyone treats me different but I want my man-meat to treat me the same. I'm still his wife and number one love....I want to stay his WIFE not MOTHER OF HIS CHILD. Those are very very different things. I think he gets it. He's a smart cookie. I don't think either one of us yet realizes what is going on.